LOVE LETTER

Your love is profound , i cant help but want you. your voice is so harsh and you yell at me for not giving you everything you ever wanted but this is not the way you are supposed to be , you give me sweet kisses and love laying next to me but you are killing me softly with every stab and useing my blood to write love letters to me , i just dont understand but i never asked you , you took my blood and rubbed it all over the back of the letter then let it dry and write in black ink over it , you write love letters and poems saying how much you care and respect me , and i wonder what is going through your head

My Grave

cradle me in your arms
as they lay me to rest in grave
I've chosen to be mine.

I'll make it beautiful
so you can join me
in my dreams of death.

Be mine forever and we will live
on the comfort of the grave
I've chosen to be mine..........

I am afraid

my dear god,

you cannot understand it.

By any possible means you say and

I perfectly belive you.

you think i am going insane ?

It may be so but not for the reasons which you suppose.

Oh! you dont understand me..

I am afraid.

it seems like my fear is a result of

masturbation of long and thoughtful planning.

I am afraid of myself ,

afraid of that horrible sensation

of comprehensible fear

above all I am afraid of my own

dreadful thoughts of of my reason,

which seems as if it were to about to leave me

driven away by a mysterious & invincible agony

I am frightened merely beacause

I cannot understand my own terror.

If I speak I am afraid of my own voice.

I close my eyes in despair and

remain thus for indefinite time

Sticky Chains

Sticky Chains ,

The place I fear the most
is distant and unessential,
But this seed of fear haven't been
fed today, and slowly my cries
are melting away when
doors open to shut.

Sticky Chains,

I discover that my hands
smell like iron today,
As wet compassion
lingers on these chains,

Sticky Chains,

I've never been caught in your chains,
they are sticky and they secrete envy
So dont dig spiderwebs in my dreams
my silence has grown, and left is screams

Running Insane

Broken heart grievously weep in pouring rain
Drowning peaceful soul inside puddles of pain
Keep thinking of you and those good old days
Miss your existence in so many different ways

Oceans of tears flowing from my weary eyes
Agitated life floating between high rised tides
Loss of love turning my inner views fully blind
Hopeless ideas overshadow intoxicated mind

Forces of rage rotating around your head
Flowers of joy soon will be wilting to death
Clusters of blossoms losing delicate petals
Weakened heart breaking in to fragments

Venomous thorns hurt as cute kissable roses bloom
Poisoned feeble life drifting toward a darkest doom
Soul of scornfulness often seething in extreme pain
Tranquility disappears as the thoughts running insane...

Whenever I cried, it was in your arms

You held me so close, away from all harm

Your soft warm skin, always against mine

Our hearts, always beating at the same time

You watched over me, like a guardian angel

You kept me safe, under your protecting spell

Whenever in darkness, you gave me light

And whenever hurt, into you I fell

But all that has left me, no longer, no more

Your something I don't know, you've left me so sore

I'm all alone now, in my minds darkest place

Blood stained skin, tear stained face

But I know what I must do, to heal this broken soul

I need to strengthen my weak heart, turn it ice cold

Hide all my feelings, disguise these falling tears

Become empty inside, let no one near

Bring up the barriers, walls around my hear to

Make them stronger than before, so they wont fall apart

Bleed out all the poison, let darkness draw me in

Let it take over me, make the light go dim

Hide behind the shadows, the only things that help

And slowly once again, fall back into myself

You will never understand the nature of my arrogant misanthropy
These enigmatic eyes from the skeleton smile of prudent vanity
I am content in his sanctuary of my complacent shadow
So take this aesthetic reality and throw the world out the windows

I tried desperately to restrain my corrupted perfidy
To prove I’m not just another silence face of absurdity
This smile I call upon to feed my burning abyss of emptiness
Provoke the secrecy of my tormenting credence

I grasped blindly at the pain of my self-indulged paradox
Causing my ardent memories of significance to be lost
These eerie delusions that taint my shallow mind to autopsy
Slowly dissipating the the subconscious of our fallacy

My weakened patience succumbed to myself destructing anger
Allowing the beauty of profanity to flatter
I breathed in the static hereby of twilight
To fall asleep in the blissful ache of my lullaby

Place the blame on my moral deterioration
To satisfy the pride of my placate aberration
I wonder in my deceptive labyrinth blind and broken
Keeping secret of this solitary bare

My Decadent