Why should i stay?

Why should I stay alive when there is nothing to live for? Why should I breathe when there is no air to breathe? Why should I cry? Why should I laugh? Why should I forgive? Why should I forgive when no-one deserves it? I sit in my room thinking, dreaming, wanting to know why should I stay alive. Finding the meaning why. Every-time I here your voice, every time I feel your touch my body shivers with Chiles. it was you who made my life miserable. It was you who made me forget myself, my childhood. Who made me lose my life. I could never become something or someone special. I could never be strong enough to face up to myself; I wish I could be strong enough to face my fear, the fear of standing up to you. The fear of wanting to feel life. The fear of loving you. why should I stay alive when there is nothing to live for? Why should I breath when there is no air? Why should I cry? All these questions lead to you. should I live? Do you have the courage to look me into the eyes and tell me the truth? My love if you can, then why dont you?