A place in Heaven for the Fallen

The night embraced the sleepy city yet again,The moon shines silvery upon this world of men.He kneeled before the cross of God – prayingFor his disease to go away, but he was not complaining.His fever was up high and he had hallucinationsAll the shadows in the room seemed like devilish temptationsAnd the air was harder to breathe, his heart was racing,But he was heroically fighting with the sickness he was facing.The wind was blowing cold putting out the shimmer candle lightAs a mistress’s silhouette walked in his room making him fright.“Who are you?” he said – his voice trembling with insecurity,But the woman didn’t answer mesmerized by his untouched purity.

Suddenly the room went cold and he felt shivers down his spine“I have come to release you from your pain and make you mine”The mistress now replied and within a second she was standing by his bed“Go away! Leave me alone!” was all that he could have said.

She paid no attention to his words and she got closer to his face“Have trust in me, my dear, and let us share eternity’s grace”And she gently kissed his neck searching cautiously for a veinTo push her fangs within it quickly so there’ll be no pain.

Before he knew what was going on his heart had stopped beating,She turned him into her kind and prepared him for fleeting Away from that place where sickness seemed at home –He was now in the arms of the undead thrown…

Many days had passed since his sudden transformationHe was now unwillingly darkness’s creation.He did not want to live forever in the gloomy nightAnd his mistress’s presence was not wanted in his sight.

Feeding with the blood of the humans that were once his kindWas something outrageous that could not be assimilated by his mind,From the start, he did not want to be part of this so called life;This was not as the woman had planned – she was now in strife.

One night he ran away finding shelter underneath a tree“I do not wish to be undead – this is not the real me!God where are you? Please release me from all of this And may that fiendish woman burn in Hell along with her mortal kiss!”

His body was weak for he didn’t feed since he was madeAs he hoped that hunger will help him faster to fadeAnd when he felt like he was left alone, abandoned by allExquisite white angels surrounded him for they heard his desperate call.

Their faces bared no signs of hate; their eyes were filled with loveAmidst doves and divine rays of the purest light sent from above.“Come, child, don’t be afraid! Father sent us to bring you in our paradise”“But I am a fallen one…” he said with crimson tears in his eyes.

“You did not cope with the creature in which you were transformed,You still strived to be human and you wanted your heart adornedWith the purity that you still keep buried deep inside your coreAnd so you are now as welcomed to our Heaven as you were before.”

He remained astonished by the angel’s words and soHe got up from the muddy ground and felt ready to go.The angles took him in their arms and they rose in God’s empireWhere darkness never reigns and peace burns bright like fire.

****************Hypnotic Eyes*************************

Her eyes are so hypnotic carefully plotting what she'll do caught in this web of love ...

not sure what to do next"you always want what you cant have," they say

she laughs at their ignorance

she'll do what she has to do

she wont get hurt again

ready to accept finite disappointment

No more sobbing or cryingshe'll stand strong

wont let people know what's inside

keeping a stiff upper lip...

and find it damn hard to smile

CORPSE

Preying into the night for withered bodies of deaths grace,Stalking into the darkness the strong scent of burning flesh,While watching upon the rivers of bleak mis fortunate souls,Are sinners of catastrophe waiting for a scarlet fire to burn?As the smoke rises into the sky, people watch with concern,For these animals seek food, food which they so badly yearnAs they crouch silently beneath tree branches of whispers,Shadows begin to emerge while they run into dark rivers.Like tigers hunting prey, they drag their food from murkey waters,Onto the shores as they begin to unravel bodies like starving beasts,Cries delude the night while these eager animals feast,Fighting over bones while ripping apart the human chests,As the porcelain moon of a bright glow begins to suddenly rise,Unexpectedly across merciful skies. They flee into the jungle;howling vicious like wolfs into the darkened night of lost hope,Hidden in the mist until these cannibals faces are revealed again.

::::::::::::::::::::::::::DEATH:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

"Death!!!"
It will be with you every breath,till your last breath"
the most natural thing for man,the breed we known as a "homo.sapiens" is Death.As we know it inevitable.It has to come and it will come.As a physical fact,death is easily understood.It is departure of the life force from the body.What has animated a handful of earth as it were,is gone.What is left is dross.Is that the end of "MAN"

What is man? How did he come to be. Who created him and

Who is the"CREATOR".

What should be the relationship between him and his "CREATOR".

Animal do not ask these question question;

Man the thinking animal,does. Man is not satisfied with loving without knowing.

As said by "Brahma"
" Naham manye suvediti no na vediti vedacha" means
I think i not that i know him well, or that i know him,or even that i know him not.

"What the most wonderful fact in the world" asked by the "YAKSHA"
'O yaksha', "We see our fellow beings dying around us every moment and yet the living think they never will die.That, surely,is the most wonderful fact of all!"
Said by "YUDHISHITIRA".

Death holds terror to many,for variety of reasons;facing death come hardest for those who linger in bed but for it is unknown cause for anxiety and misery. I want to know the answer,instead of wondering why?The only thing that is true in this world is death,for some its the "beginning" and for some "its the end" its a topic that is being debated from the beginning and it will go on till eternity;;;;;;;

The chasm of death only obstructs our view.Our sorrow due to our foolish refusal to see and believe that what comes next is self existent,unborn and not subject to change death and decay.Life is like a manuscript,one can search for missing pages. Who am i? From where i have come and what the purpose of life? You are here because you were somewhere else.You move from the known to the unknown,from visible to invisible and from the seen to the unseen. No human being can live without doing karma but when he performs the "Karmas" he has to reap the fruits.If we learn to reduce all our desires to a point zero,all our motivations will be over and there will be no karma.There will be no Bondage and the human being will not be in a bonds for the fruits of his 'Karma'.Attachments seems to be the mother of all miseries.

"The wise one" said YAMA,"Is neither born,nor does he die.He is unborn,constant,eternal,primeval".

Why "GOD",if there is a "GOD",in His infinite grace does not spare the soul its endless birth and the deaths and gives it peace is not, again, explained in any meaningful way . Why having created a soul, should "GOD" turn it over to a treadmill-like future? Why should "GOD" create man and then endow him with senses and tell him not in the "Gratification of the senses, but in his disciplining them,lies Salvation."

For action without detachment has its inevitable effects.This is the law of karma. According to the principle of Karma,there is nothing uncertain or capricious in the moral world. We reap what we sow. Action and reaction are equal and opposite which is the same as the second law of dynamics. In that sense,every little action-any action-has its effect. When does that effect, reaction, as it were , cease to operate? With death?

There cannot be any carryover for the simple reason that there is no future life. But if there is future life, if the soul is indeed reborn, if the chain of life-death-life continues without end, then it is possible to assert that whatever we do in our present life will have its natural and inevitable repercussion in a later life and that the only way in which to stay the reaction is to reduce the chances of reaction to zero.

and the debate stiillllllllll goes on...........................

"Life is ecstasy and Death is eternity"

::::::::::::::::::::::DRAGON'S BREATH ::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

'It might be our last day', they mockingly say,not believing the words they were just so quick to say.That left a terrible picture in my pessimistic head.They laugh with joy as the dragons smoke deteriorates my lungs leaving me speechless,yet undead.I grin as the black night turns red,as they look into my eyes deteriorating not their lungs,but their spirits inside.So much unexplainable love overflows from the God given fountain,that they come to drink so frequently out of.It never stops flowing,I must keep those smiles going,its my dream that Im now finally living.So drink and be merry, and go on in glee,get drunk off of the love Im terrifyingly giving.The music from the mysterious pitremind me of the clock that ticksthis time away,and yet at the same time the clock wont stop reminding methat the music and this time of adolescence is still playing my way.Maybe if I take just a little sip of that poisonIll be better kept,maybe if I took a little puff of that acid Ill forgetall those days I regretfully wept. Im only kidding,I wouldnt be caught in such acts,but that doesnt mean my mind didnt stop to think ofthe possibilities and deceiving power in such habits as that.Where has this innocent world of ours gone?I wonder if the spiritual battle of ours will be won?Though those bags below your beautiful eyessink a little lower,and though your feelings progress just that much slower,my mothers lullaby now sings me to peaceful sleep,with even more hope then ever of this war not ending in defeat.I go on now with the smile in my eyes reaching its peak,even though I look at your imperfectness for the first time clearly.Now that is a miracle from above,against all odds,Im happy with an even better chance at love

Now there is nothing to hide

mermaid and rebel are going to fight

now there wont be the obnoxious feeling of surving

but they will be living

I know she love me

same way,the way

the mountain love the misty clouds

where the sun tries to come in between

but the love is so pure and clean

the same way you love your loved

ones in your dreams

where you will do anything

bcoz thats your world

"I love you"is the word

thats keep them alive

love had made a simple guy

into a martyr

with so much of ecstatic eternal energy

running down in the veins

and love is all over you

from your heart to brain

just think and hear the bell

and see them together

one the god's angel

and the Lucifer's son

and this time there wont be a run

the best from both the world
mermaid from heaven
and Lucifer's hell

yes,there was something wrong
but feel good,when I see her strong
there won't be anymore cries
it will be either
"we live or he dies"

but why should we die
they are together to fly
tell me why? always the god people suffer's
why not others
yes,I am not talking about me
God! he is not in my wildest dream

Hey God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don't give me that sterns expressions
I know how to get my salvation
you and me dont have any connection
tell me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what's your desperation
its my agitation
why you want me in your space
you know na nah....................
I dont like your face

The final declaration
why you want everybody down on your leg
why you want them to beg
I think about you and only one thing
I can do is Laugh
In my mind there is only one sentence
It's feel like you also "DOUBT"
Your own "EXISTENCE"

/;/;/;/;/;/;/;/;/;/..........." Pure Darkness"............/;/;/;/;/;/;/;/;/;/

My pain is something you can not see,
it is all I see from inside of me,
my horrors are behind my eyes,
as you all want me to die.

I see things people aren't meant to see,
run away and flee,
I don't blame you for doing this,
and blood flows from my wrist.

People think I a total freak,
and pains are at their peak,
I stand in this world,
alone in an everlasting twirl.

Alone standing in the rain,
as you look into my eyes and see my pain,
you don't nothing just tear me apart,
just like my heart.

No one helps me in this place,
as you look at my pale face,
mangled and torn,
my darkness is born.

As you see the dark sky,
and soon to say good bye,
say hello to my fate,
as I am locked behind black metal gates.

With all my pain next to me,
why can't you all see,
shed some light,
it might help me fight.

The darkness surrounding my soul,
as you see a skull pole.
Welcome to my end,
and let my heart to be mend.

Let me be free,
just let me,
I want to be out of the mud,
and no more blood.

********** GOD--------VS--------LUCIFER************

its under construction i am just collecting the pics

******* Controversial _______Maniac***********

"Controversies"
why its me,who have to see
even i wants to be free
Ok! Tell me what you want me to be

All my childhood I have seen violence
still I always kept my silence,
surrounded by "Maniac"
How you want me to Act?
why you made me like this,
There was a time I belive in your presence
but after all that shit,I started questioning your existence,
now I dont agree
so you called me a "Nazi"

What's my education
I am a boy in transformation
becoming a "rebel" and
waiting for my "revolution"

God! bless my mother and grandmother
give all the pain to me,
not to other...
I remember the first time I was beaten by my Father
It was not my fault ,
but noone bother.........

I was born and brought up by anger and rage
always felt like I am in a "Cage"
my parents never understand me
so they dont know how to raise me ????????.......................
and thats why they labelled me as a "Crazy"
there was lot of thing that I lack......
and I always feel someone is on my back
and why the "FUCK" I should justify!!!!!!!!!
May be thats why
they called me a "Maniac"
and I lost the track

This is the 21st century,full of fury..
There are lot of people like me
there are lot of thing we like to see,
even "Maniac" like me, want "peace"!!!!!!!!!!!
Have you guys ever look in our face
this fucking world is going in a diffrent pace
there will be a day,when there will not be
a single human trace......

Come sit and talk to me
all Maniac came and see
Now I am sitting alone with a glittering knife
just thinking of taking my life
But wait!!!!!!!
why should i do that?????????
its not my fault,thats a fact

So, I am thinking whta to do
because its not me,then its must be "you"
You know how much I loved you
You ripped me to my bone marrow
and I am a "maniac" not a "Pharaoh"

I am disciple of "Lucifer"
No,he is not a Devil
He is the angel who fell
to become the ruler of "Hell"
He is the one who is fallen from heaven
and He is the "son of Dawn"
and he haven't done anything wrong
the name "Lucifer"
are made of two words
"Lux" and "Ferre"
means "light" and "to bear"
So it means bearer of the light
So he pay more attention in the night

People ignored me I dont like it
and none listens to me,
Now I dont tries to find it
I dont go back home,
It dont mean shit
Its feel like yesterday,
Whenever I think of that
So,What I am?????????
Whats the "Fact"!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes,I belive all you will say
is a "CONTROVERSIAL MANIAC"

and the controversy still continues !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!