If you wake up one morning

and they tell you I'm dead

don't look around in shock

you knew i was fcked in the head

if they tell you

i cut to deep this time

don't wonder how i could

it's not a crime

if they Tell you

my blood stained the floor

don't lock yourself up

slamming the door

if mum breaks down

if she starts to cry

don't join in her sadness

it was my choice to die

if mum tells you she love's me

and if you say it too

think before you do

now that my life is through

if mum asks for your help

there is a funeral to attend

for a broken boy who's life

you couldn't mend

if mum says she wants red roses

of the fcking white one

tell her i want black roses

and to be buried with a gun

if she wants to dress me up

in the white dress she bought

get my used top and denim

in white i wont be caught

if she cries at the alter

help her to her seat

her heart is now broken

will she ever find her feet

if they sing the fcking church songs

that never made sense to me

go get skillet, or my chemical romance

the real me they will all see

if they go on and on

about everything i used to be

tell em to get fcked

cause they never knew me

if they ask why i have scars

tell em i couldn't cope

let em know there is almost 200

cause i ran out of hope

if you dream of me

of what i did that night

don't worry you'll never know

cause you wont get it right

if you think about my death

you cut the fck out of yourself

you lock yourself

upit's not good for your health

if you wonder what went through my mind

as the blade went across

it was all of you my angel

and all of the loss

if you think you could have saved me

stopped me before i went to far

helped me on my feet

caught a falling star

if you say you still love me

ars to your eyes

remember I'm still in your ear

and that will stop your cries

know i love you too

and I'll always be in your heart

I'll always be with you

if one day you remember my face

and it brings tears