To Misery....My Love

I Casually made acquaintance with misery.

I found it impossible to comprehend it either morally or philosophically.

It has just remained as a profound meloncholy.

In the moments of exictement the life grews bright to a degree almost inconceivable.

These pecularities of life has only caused me much annoyance.

Life has continually applauding on his half explanatory strain,

which when I first heard it,impressed me very painfully.

I soon however grew accustomed to it and my uneasiness slowly become pleasure for me.

It seemed to be it is design rather to insinuate than directlyto assert that.

My imagination is singularly vigorous and creative.

Nowdays my life seems to me like a forsaken world , empty and bare.

All belief which adds poetry to my life is now disappearing.

The Night

I am passionately fond of the night. I love it, in the same way that men love their country or their mistress. I love it with everyone of my senses. In nights I feel myself in the depths of my innermost being , in those depths where we hide the painful secrets , the shameful secrets. I am going to tell you about it , exactly what happenes , without attempting to explain , I can't explain it , unless I happened to be mad. So often one come across people for whom the destruction of life is a physical pleasure. Create and destroy !! These two words sum up the history of every universe. The desire to create and the urge to destroy , intoxicate me like wine . The night noticed this , looked at me , then rushed up and flungs her arms around me and takes me to the state of ecstasy.

I am the forgotten One

I am the forgotten one

the guy who went missing

the one no one came looking for....

Dear Diary,
Sitting now I wonder

wonder why no one cared

cared enough to see the sadness

sadness scarring my eyes

eyes reflecting horror

horror from a past

past forgotten

forgotten....just like me.

I couldn't forget...though, I tried

tried so very hard to move

move on with my life

life filled with friends

friends false..false like my smiles

smiles masking pain

pain. Love missing

missing....just like me.

I could no longer bare

bare the loneliness

loneliness within. Soul empty

empty grey days

days filled with sad memories

memories from a past

past best forgotten

forgotten....just like me.

To seek and found a reason to be,

to hunt like a hound, your destiny to see.

My only love, once found, now lost,

for my cowardice, that was the cost.

Inside my heart, to pieces, I am shattered,

all those pieces, in darkness, now scattered.

To seek end in the dark,

it is my destiny,

to weep alone in the dark,

it is my destiny,

to die all alone without your love,

it is my destiny.

You win

so you win today,
its not because i lost it
its because you are not worth fighting
I gave up..........
No more fighting with you....and see today i got my dead serpent....

ENJOY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"I bit into his neck, letting the hot blood drain out into my mouth...When I pulled away I heard a sob..And I realized it was me...I had just killed the one I loved me the most... Then...I killed myself..."

Revenge

Tie the noose around the neck

Let'em hang and wait for the snap

Evil lurks amongst the trees

As the men hang in threes

Never hiding in shadow to make the kill

Because life is so much more fun to steal

When no one's expecting you to strike

And there's no warnings when its light

They all think their safe but thats a gag

Let'em find out when I take the first stab

Your bleeding wounds I will kiss

To taste your blood against my lips

I have a lust for your death

Stronger than an addiction to crystal meth

All those years of suffering and pain

And finally I have revenge to gain

Does it feel good now to be in torture

Why aren't you begging that you want more

Come on now thats not they way it works

If you don't agree now I can make this worse

Remember taking pleasure in hurting me

Now its my turn to see

How fun it is to mess with your emotions

And to beat you down till you're motionless

You're swearing at me with all your might

Could that mean you're actually in fright

I guess you don't understand the situation you're in

I am the devil destroying you for your sin

Maybe I'm not that powerful but I can try

Won't matter to me as long as you die

Your end I will make slow and miserable

For everything you've done that was terrible

Don't mind my smile baby but you're all mine

Fear the click of my knife for now its time

To cut out your heart and eat you alive

In the crimson morning so fine .................................

LOVE LETTER

Your love is profound , i cant help but want you. your voice is so harsh and you yell at me for not giving you everything you ever wanted but this is not the way you are supposed to be , you give me sweet kisses and love laying next to me but you are killing me softly with every stab and useing my blood to write love letters to me , i just dont understand but i never asked you , you took my blood and rubbed it all over the back of the letter then let it dry and write in black ink over it , you write love letters and poems saying how much you care and respect me , and i wonder what is going through your head

My Grave

cradle me in your arms
as they lay me to rest in grave
I've chosen to be mine.

I'll make it beautiful
so you can join me
in my dreams of death.

Be mine forever and we will live
on the comfort of the grave
I've chosen to be mine..........

I am afraid

my dear god,

you cannot understand it.

By any possible means you say and

I perfectly belive you.

you think i am going insane ?

It may be so but not for the reasons which you suppose.

Oh! you dont understand me..

I am afraid.

it seems like my fear is a result of

masturbation of long and thoughtful planning.

I am afraid of myself ,

afraid of that horrible sensation

of comprehensible fear

above all I am afraid of my own

dreadful thoughts of of my reason,

which seems as if it were to about to leave me

driven away by a mysterious & invincible agony

I am frightened merely beacause

I cannot understand my own terror.

If I speak I am afraid of my own voice.

I close my eyes in despair and

remain thus for indefinite time

Sticky Chains

Sticky Chains ,

The place I fear the most
is distant and unessential,
But this seed of fear haven't been
fed today, and slowly my cries
are melting away when
doors open to shut.

Sticky Chains,

I discover that my hands
smell like iron today,
As wet compassion
lingers on these chains,

Sticky Chains,

I've never been caught in your chains,
they are sticky and they secrete envy
So dont dig spiderwebs in my dreams
my silence has grown, and left is screams

Running Insane

Broken heart grievously weep in pouring rain
Drowning peaceful soul inside puddles of pain
Keep thinking of you and those good old days
Miss your existence in so many different ways

Oceans of tears flowing from my weary eyes
Agitated life floating between high rised tides
Loss of love turning my inner views fully blind
Hopeless ideas overshadow intoxicated mind

Forces of rage rotating around your head
Flowers of joy soon will be wilting to death
Clusters of blossoms losing delicate petals
Weakened heart breaking in to fragments

Venomous thorns hurt as cute kissable roses bloom
Poisoned feeble life drifting toward a darkest doom
Soul of scornfulness often seething in extreme pain
Tranquility disappears as the thoughts running insane...

Whenever I cried, it was in your arms

You held me so close, away from all harm

Your soft warm skin, always against mine

Our hearts, always beating at the same time

You watched over me, like a guardian angel

You kept me safe, under your protecting spell

Whenever in darkness, you gave me light

And whenever hurt, into you I fell

But all that has left me, no longer, no more

Your something I don't know, you've left me so sore

I'm all alone now, in my minds darkest place

Blood stained skin, tear stained face

But I know what I must do, to heal this broken soul

I need to strengthen my weak heart, turn it ice cold

Hide all my feelings, disguise these falling tears

Become empty inside, let no one near

Bring up the barriers, walls around my hear to

Make them stronger than before, so they wont fall apart

Bleed out all the poison, let darkness draw me in

Let it take over me, make the light go dim

Hide behind the shadows, the only things that help

And slowly once again, fall back into myself